the bipolar poet
From an almost alien and indeed alienated perspective, comes the subjective verse of a rambling savant, stricken by mental illness, who seeks hope within these painful and faithful outpourings of powerful emotion. Expressing almost sagaciously, many of the messages in the book beckon to the reader‘s sense of destiny and divine authority, as well as the natural ardor for finding true love. The poetry brings into vision the depth of God’s love and grace within a man’s life; one inundated with rejection and heartbreak. Episodic afflictions with mania and deep, almost suicidal bouts of depression have brought forth Will Fillmore’s gasping grasps at meaning in his life and losses. The author offers profound professions of love and surrender in a sometimes grandiose search for truth in the world. Themes of passion, pain, and parental persecution mix with miraculous visions of divine extra-terrestrial revelations to this planet. Filtered screams disguised in metered verse uncover a tortured being avoiding the existential reality of life. Examining the gentle and submissive thoughts of a man without worldly ambition will show his tortured spirit and gifted soul. His capacity for love without condition and understanding of his own disaffection together present a channel for a still small voice that cries for the consciousness of human beings throughout the Earth. His verse serves to witness the power of peace given to all humankind, even to the lowliest person.
THE SEVEN THUNDERS
4. Sé verdad
THE SEVEN THUNDERS
4. Sé verdad
3. Creo virtud
5. En Tierra 6. Vacio
7. Dios
5. En Tierra 6. Vacio
7. Dios
2. Desempeño
1.Deseo
All poetry Copyright © 2006 William Fillmore.
Illustrations created from free clip art or personal photos using Kodak picture software.
All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form whatsoever, except for use by a reviewer in connection with a review.
All poetry Copyright © 2006 William Fillmore.
Illustrations created from free clip art or personal photos using Kodak picture software.
All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form whatsoever, except for use by a reviewer in connection with a review.
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BIPOLAR BEAUTY BY LEONARDO
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Battles of Brotherhood
He stood on the mount and saw us as sand,
Whether eyes were averted or fast affixed.
He cared so deeply that we all understand;
We need not to get the metaphors mixed.
Matthew 5:21-23
The history of brotherhood was already written,
But there was so much more to bear.
History repeats if our hearts won’t be smitten!
Wasn’t this His main reason to share?
Murder brings judgement as we already know -
Beloved Abel was slain by Cain.
Contemptuous anger has the same seed to sew.
And Ishmael and Isaac have felt the pain.
And to judge one’s worth as less than another
May bring you before His council.
As Israel tricked his blind aging father,
Esau’s people have hence sought to fulfill.
But more important is that you not break the rules!
Despite the foolish act of Israel’s tribal fathers,
That Joseph not call his own brothers fools,
Not risking hell fire for himself or any others.
You see, Moses needed Aaron to give the light
As brothers they could speak as one –
To make understood their people’s plight
And make way for the lawgiving to be done.
So beyond loving the Father with all mind and heart,
Also as ourselves we must completely love one another.
So that even when we have been set far apart,
Love your enemy for he is truly your brother.
BIPOLAR illness is not a persistently debilitating mental condition. Have you given the issue much thought? By the typical global citizen it is not very well understood. Even those afflicted with the diagnosis are unable to understand it completely. It plays on both intellect and emotion. You could probably formulate some preconceptions about a person who has been unfortunately labeled with this stigmatizing condition. What would your judgement be based on? Even practitioners of mental health care don’t agree on the factors that comprise the disorder. It is a normal circumstance today for many to have experienced some anecdotal encounter with a person who has been deemed “bipolar”. If you have had personal knowledge of anyone called “manic depressive” or “bipolar”, does that make you an expert? Are you now qualified to generalize and define what it means to make this definitive assessment of who is and who is not “bipolar”? No doubt some of you would say yes. In doing so, have you raised yourself to a stature above reproach?
The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV) is the text used by health care providers to determine symptoms and treatments for any known mental illnesses. Even in this text, Bipolar Disorder has a broad range of manifested symptoms and diagnostic strategies. Most importantly, it is still considered a mental illness, therefore requiring treatment of some kind. This blanket consideration by our accepted health care providers has failed to take into consideration the possibility of human diversity and evolution in the psychological realm. Before the advent of pharmaceutical intervention, the phenomenon of unique and nonconforming thought was considered differently. Psychosis which manifested itself as dangerous or violent had to be dealt with in some restrictive fashion, but people who merely espoused surprising and abstract ideas and differing consciousness then had to be dealt with differently by society. Using the example of Leonardo DaVinci, who by most learned assessments was “bipolar”, may in itself shift some people’s thinking of what this “affliction” is all about. Abraham Lincoln, who some have called visionary and gifted and who certainly impacted American society markedly, in fact suffered from “episodes” of severe bipolar depression. However, without either a physician’s textbook or a flourishing pharmaceutical industry, men like these and many other great people of note have risen to heights of human achievement still embraced in today’s intellectual world.
Therefore, before being enslaved by a modern mindset of judgement and categorization, you should be open-minded enough to reevaluate some of the sources of your own beliefs. From a historical perspective, and especially a religious one, we may need to be reminded that momentous changes in the minds of human beings have sprung from thought that was neither conformist nor compromised. We are all limited, and we need to realize that different people have different ranges of limitation. While some apparently “normal” people are gifted in many aspects, they may be limited in others, and should realize that their horizons can be broadened by admitting they still have much more to learn. After all, don’t we all have more to learn?
A bipolar state of mind might be reconsidered to be a positive asset to society in many senses. Although there are many accounts of a lack of empathy on the part of these anomalies of humanity, it may instead be true that they have a type of “hyper empathy”, that allows them to perceive existence from more than one opposing points of view. Even if their thoughts seem outrageous, none can dispute their thoughtfulness. The outlook I have observed in many bipolar men and women is one of an excellent member of a debate team – capable of supporting the perspective of multiple sides of an issue. This ability to shift perspective is indeed an empathetic one, and might explain why many sufferers are determined to be oppositional and argumentative. In fact, it is common for this small number of people to resent immovable authority and pomposity. It is also common for some in this group to “push buttons”, thus making others uncomfortable. Bipolar thought, therefore, is not self-righteousness. It is its antithesis. It thwarts individuals who truly personify self-righteousness, and can force those who are stoic but weaker in intellect to become indignant toward them.
Many called bipolar have a deep spiritual awareness. Some even embody a “messianic” posture. Whether you believe in human prophesy or have concluded it is impossible, you must still admit there are those throughout human history who have been called “prophets”. Christians call the man Jesus “messiah”. Muslims call the same man “prophet”. Abraham’s conversations with God outlined in Scripture are usually not disputed by people of faith, whether members of the monotheistic religions of Judaism, Christianity, or Islam. The same faiths embrace Noah, Moses, Elijah, and David as agents of God in some fashion. Imagine if you can – these same men in 21st century society. The probability is that they would be diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Even agnostic and atheist citizens of our world must see the danger of stifling the words and thoughts of people who have brand new ideas and pronouncements. Even if you choose not to believe in prophetic words presented to you, will you believe that there are things seen and imagined that you haven’t witnessed for yourself? Prayer and meditation are personal experiences, and are indeed secular in their truest sense. For even without the need to acknowledge God, you have undoubtedly prayed for something and have spent time in deep meditation during certain times in your life. Whether explained by God or by science, your beliefs have been formed thoughtfully, in the invisible realm of consciousness.
This book is about “bipolar” consciousness… the ability to exist in this world observing life from the bottom up and from the top down, as if witnessing from two separate and distinct states of being. You, as the reader, must determine for yourself what you truly fear to understand your own intolerances. You must question why you feel this fear. You must decide if your thoughts consist of words alone, or something more. Can you understand how limited words alone are? There is a profound message imbedded in these pages. The words are what you see before you, and yet they can only fuel the fire they create. Words alone are not that fire. Although written by one author, it comes from dual witnesses.
-- W. Fillmore
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